This & That

I am at day surgery with hubby. He is getting a steroid injection through his side to his spine to help with his back problems. He gets them a couple of times a year. Things are really gearing up for my trip to Seattle. I was also surprised to learn I will be going to LA too. My plane reservations are made. Reality is twisting my stomach into knots. I have not flown in over 20 years.

Emotions Sponge

Yesterday I was in a state of euphoria. I couldn’t have been happier. Today…today the happy bubble burst. Actually it started last night.

About 8:00-ish, my husband got a page from work. A co-worker (in another department) committed suicide by jumping off one of the buildings at work, apparently due to marital problems. Even though hubby didn’t know the co-worker on a deeply personal level, it still upset him greatly. I tried to be comforting, but I just didn’t know what to say.

Part of the thing about my personality is that I tend to draw from the personalities and feelings around me. I’m like an emotions “sponge”. So this really threw me into a tailwind and I started surging into the depths of my own emotional pool. Those that know me, know my history…you know what kind of effect suicide discussions have on me. What a personal issue this is for me.

So I’m sitting here, while hubby had to go into work – on an unrelated issue (he has to paint his shop floor), and I’m just immersed in my music and my thoughts. Seems like I always turn to music. The irony is the song playing on my MP3 play is by U2 “If God Would Send His Angels”. I hope God sent his angels last night…for that young man and his family & friends.