I could really really use some M & Ms right now! That and the ability to crawl back into my bed. I’m fighting off some kind of infection and I feel really oogy. My neck is stiff and hurts, I’m swollen right under my jaw (lymph nodes) and woke up with a headache and burning eyes. I cannot get sick now!!! Too much to do and not enough time to do it.
The kids are well estabilished in school now. Both love their classes and teachers. I’m actually glad they are back in school, but misty as well because it is just more proof that time does not stand still. Ellie is so precious she said “Finally I can learn again!” I told her she learns all the time, but just doesn’t realize it. I’ve noticed that Eddie is really getting the teenager mentality though. I’m too young to have a teenager (let alone one that will be getting his driver’s permit in December).
It is times like these that I really miss my mom the most. I can’t stop thinking about her lately. I just keep thinking about all the things she is missing, but then I remind myself that she isn’t missing a thing. She probably knows more about what is going on than I do! I’m the one that is missing her.
I’m slipping into a depression phase of my bipolar. Combination of the stress at work, the infection I’m fighting, the kids back in school, and my mom constantly being in my thoughts. I have two weeks until I meet my new psychiatrist and work on a better plan of attack for my ups and downs. The Lithium was a definate NO. The Depakote works great, but I think I need a little something extra. I’m glad to have finally found a female doctor.
